| I think I am officially dead inside emotionally haha finally
I can't feel a thing when listening to love songs hahaha
(erm things that are supposed to be felt in love songs?)
well there's one geh, nauseous loh. |
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| waking in a sweat again
another day's been laid to waste
in my disgrace
stuck in my head again
feels like I'll never leave this place
there's no escape
i'm my own worst enemy
i've given up
i'm sick of feeling
is there nothing you can say
take this all away
i'm suffocating!
tell me what the fuck is wrong with me
i don't know what to take
thought I was focused but I'm scared
i'm not prepared
i hyperventilate
looking for hope somehow somewhere
and you don't care
put me out of my misery
...this really says all.
it was a mistake from the very beginning.
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| 其實我唔明點解我咁疼仲要死撐，一路練一路食panadol，我究竟怕咩，為咩
最重要係我覺得係“應該”
淨係“應該”，而唔知“點解應該”
[仲要練極都咁差]
我好恐怖。 |
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| "One step closer to the edge and I'm gonna break" (both physically and mentally) haha
but MUST reserve a space for our MUSIC O CAMP 2009 right ;)?
I'll be back,
after some sleep and course registration.
By the way, new horn came home from Germany [again] in great shape T^T Thank God! |
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| 我以為，獨自一個，冷靜也好，跑步也好，可以舒減不快樂
又不快樂。每次在這裡寫下的，也是不快樂的東西
不要誤會哦，只是在我大部份快樂的時候，
我已經不能自制地把快樂都告訴我認識的你們
所以...允許我把不快樂亂寫一下...
一杯熱茶，把我所有防備卸下
不快樂絕對不可怕
我只是...沒有辦法解決...沒有渠道宣泄...沒有人......
只差一點點 的喜歡 只差一點點 的厭惡
只差一點點 的買賣 只差一點點 的友誼
只差一點點 的生命 只差一點點 的傳癒
只差一點點 的關係 只差一點點 的不捨
只差一點點 的堅持 只差一點點 的位置
只差一點點 的新樂器
只差一點點 的走火入魔
就是差那一點點
那，還能輕視那一點點嗎?
我不會埋怨，那不是不幸運，只是一種安排
要來的總要來，來了，再勇敢想辦法去面對，去解決吧?
只是...力不從心的感覺真的很難受
'勉強無幸福' 還是 '唔迫點進步'?
'放棄' 還是 '放下'?
...請便吧，反正不能再更脆弱 |
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